The first couple of months after the start of the COVID-19 pandemic were rough for me. They were for everyone, of course, but at the time, I was still dealing with the sudden death of my partner, Robert. He was diagnosed with brain cancer in September 2019, and succumbed to the illness seven months later.
Suddenly, I had to cope with my personal grief and the reality of having to live alone again after six years in a relationship. Virtually no one around me could offer 100 percent of their support because of the pandemic lockdown, but I managed.
If we're being totally honest here, one of the hardest struggles was my sudden sexual frustration. Obviously, I couldn't meet partners physically, and at one point, even masturbating—aided by porn or not—wasn't enough.
Keeping each other safe
As a recovering sex and drug addict, I knew I had to be mindful as I explored the internet looking for online hookups. After a while, I was introduced to a group where guys would virtually meet regularly for collective masturbation. It was called "Love Temple"—and I enjoyed it.