Oh, my gosh. I laughed. So on the show, I remember I struggled to find a date. It's just I've never dated before, so I'm awkward. And then the dating apps, I'm not the most photogenic. So I feel like my profiles are not to par. And I'm the type of person, if you meet me in person, I promise I'm better, you know?

And I was struggling to find a date when I first moved here for Twentysomethings. I remember Kamari, one of my roommates was like, "Keauno, after the show, you're going to have a sea of men." It's been a desert. I'm like, "There is no this sea of men." But recently, I just started getting self-confidence. And I've realized like, "Oh, that guy is attracted to me."

But it's so hard because I'm 28. So I feel late to the game. I know there's the joke in the gay world, in your 30s, you're in your coffin. And I'm like, "I have two years left, and I'm not even here yet." I'm just kidding though.

But I feel so behind. So I meet people and these crazy sex stories or hookups so common, and I'm like, "I don't even know if I'm top or bottom." So I feel so lost, and I'm late to the game. I still want to have fun. I don't know if I want a hoe phase. I don't know if I want to just find a boyfriend and wait. But it's also just so hard because I feel like other people my age have so much more experience.

I remember on Twentysomethings, I get hurt—or was hurt. And so I remember being happy, though, because I'm like "I experienced heartbreak." For someone who never thought I was going to find a guy, I had my heart broken. And I remember Roxy and Natalie being like, "You're happy about your heart being broken?" And I'm like "That means I'm on a journey." I remember I was crying and laughing at the same time.

I'm living a life right now I never thought I would live. So to me, it's like every moment, negative or positive, is amazing for me to experience.

This is like a shameless plug, but you made me think-- so on Twentysomethings, my best friend, her name is Natalie. And she went to Miami, so we're separated. But a lot of our supporters are the same group of people. And they always—they were asking us relationship advice, and they were wanting more from us.

And so we're like, let's do a podcast. And it's called "Hopeful and Horny." And it's because we're the most inexperienced people. And so we laughed that people ask us for advice. And so the podcast ended up—it's mainly us asking the audience for advice. We also talk about, yes, we're inexperienced, but we're very sexual people and how that is shameful nowadays. But it's like, no, we want to be proud of being horny. Everyone experience it.

I would just share to others—I feel like more coming out stories are coming out, which is good. But also, is there isn't a way to come out. I used to say when I moved to Austin I wish there is a coming out book or how to be gay book. Still kinda do. But at the same time, I don't say that anymore because I'm there's not—everyone has their own journey.

Even though my show was Twentysomethings, I'm glad I've been able to connect with people who are in their 30s and 40s that say either "I'm still closeted" or "I'm just coming out too." And so one, as someone who felt it was too old to come out, it's not, because even at 28, I feel like I'm living a whole new life and just starting life.

And two, I know easier said than done, but I remember at 25 crying at home, praying every night, just not in the best place. To where I am today at 28, three years later—yes, it took three years, but I'm so happy. And I cannot imagine. 25-year-old me was in such a dark space, I couldn't imagine where I am today. And so to anyone that's out there on your couch or not going out or just not in a good place, just keep trying to go. And it might need to be a move. It might need to be meeting someone new. But I'm thankful I had a little push to help me, but it gets better. Life is worth it, ya know?